another interview in the books.

i went to my most recent interview at the hotel i just interviewed at and i honestly don't think i said anything wrong except for right when the lady who interviewed me said something about doing things when she's bored and i said, "oh. yeah i try to keep myself busy because i tend to get myself into trouble when i'm bored and not doing anything." then i remembered to myself that i shouldn't make people think i'm crazy or i do bad things. a little more into our conversation i said to her, "oh yeah- and i hope you don't think i'm a trouble maker or a bad person because i said when i'm bored- i get into trouble.." then the lady laughed and said, "i didn't think anything of it. *laughs* you're fine." then we started talking about the tasks front desk workers usually do and i'm positive i can do everything. when it asked on the sheet i had to fill out before the interview what were some examples of what we didn't enjoy working about the previous jobs- i wrote, "they had me do all the easy jobs." i don't know any other way to explain how my previous employers tended to assume i was only capable of doing easy shit. i also wrote how there weren't any people to work with at my previous jobs, so i didn't like it. i know that's the opposite of the professions my grandma was trying to nudge me into working. she seemed to think i should work data entry- i assume so i would become a hermit and not interact with other people who could possibly say mean things? this is the real fucking world. NOT everyone is gonna be nice, don't be a bitch and deal with it.
then i accidentally called the supervisor of the apartment i used to live at previously. she must actually miss me because she asked me if i wanted to join her program again. i don't really understand how anyone could miss me.. but alright. that apartment was nice, the only reason why i left it was because management was bugging me because i signed a lease, so i couldn't formally live there for longer than the lease i signed. i really suppose that i'd actually want to live anywhere they helped me get my driver's license again with a vehicle of my choice i could drive. it seems like the ics from this particular apartment is just obsessed with how many hours they get paid for- so the more goals i have, the more hours they expect to get. the thing is.. they haven't actually helped me complete ANY of my goals because they try to make it seem like it's inconvenient like everyone else in this damn world. i've passed that fucking knowledge test to get my driver's permit at least 5 times in my life. i paid for behind-the-wheel lessons (brian can vouch for me here because it was when he was my trustee and i'm sure if i looked back in my email- i could probably find proof) and the guy said i was safe to drive, i just needed to buy a vehicle to take the behind-the-wheel test. it's like these dicks conveniently NEGLECT EVERYTHING i'm doing in my life to progress to where I want to be just so they hope i lose the ability and/or knowledge. i am honestly at the edge of a cliff with my patience. people WONDER why i wanna move to new york (i'd settle for boston) so bad. THEIR TRANSPORTATION IS MORE AVAILABLE AND ACCESSIBLE THAN THIS SHITHOLE OF A STATE. PEOPLE ARE PURPOSELY KEEPING ME IN THIS DAMN JAR AND NOT LETTING ME GET OUT OF IT- TO THE POINT WHERE I'M SUFFOCATING BUT THAT DOESN'T CONCERN ANYONE. IF PEOPLE WOULD ACTUALLY FUCKING HELP ME BE ABLE TO DO ALL THE THINGS I'M ACTUALLY CAPABLE OF- I WOULDN'T WANT TO MOVE TO AREAS WHERE THOSE THINGS ARE ACTUALLY AVAILABLE BECAUSE I'D BE ABLE TO DO THEM INDEPENDENTLY! *GASP* YA THINK?! my ridiculous supposed excuses of "support" don't give a shit because they're *ALL* NOSEY ENTITLED PRICKS. i shouldn't have to expect joe to help me with everything either.